What if you made a wrong decision
in your life and you cannot turn it back as before?
Did you run away? Or did you go
through the way?
As for me, I have no choice. I have
to go through it no matter how. Well, it’s not the huge decision pun. It was
about my course. The one we called, Computer Science. As a typical me, I thought
that computer science revolves all the Microsoft thingy like Offices, Excel,
PowerPoint etc etc, or even some editing tools.
But who knows, none of them
included. The first class I entered was about C++. I already had the bad
feeling about the subject. Dahla C, ade plus plus lagi. But that’s not the
matter. Once my lecturer jotted down the code like, ‘cout’, ‘cin’, and asked us
to pronounce them, I already failed.
The correct pronunciation was
c-out, but I read it as cout (kout). And c-in as cin (kin) 😑. You see how
noob I was. Yeah, no worries. I also laughed at myself for being this kind of
noob. Everytime Abah picked me from Uni, I spilled out everything to him. I can’t
do this. It’s too difficult for me.
Plus I hate it to the fullest.
But Abah just ignore that 😑.
Then, I told Ma. “Ma, it’s
difficult. Why on earth do I have to learn programming? I don’t like it.”
And Ma just give me the same
reaction like Abah did 😑.
I told my uncles, my aunties, my
brothers, my sister, my cousins, and even Aiman’s cat (this was too mainstream)
but everyone was just ignoring me. K fine.
Then the 2 years and half of
diploma’s fight begin. More and more programming subjects coming. Whenever I felt
so difficult to learn, I called Emi. And he told me to build the interest. Interest
can be built. People can fall in love at the first sight and people also can
fall in love by trying to like it at first. I choose the second option. I built
my interest. But I was not that positive. I still can’t like it and I failed to
Emi had no choice instead of keep
advising me. I knew he also being at his most patience level of comforting me,
but he still be there for me. Yela, I told him about this every week and if for
anyone else, that could be bored. And finally, his advice did work. He told me,
“Kak Ain, just learn it as a part of amanah. This is the amanah from Allah. There
were a lot of people who didn’t have the opportunity to learn and you got it.
Just do your best and do it for the sake of Allah. Insya-Allah there always be
the help from him.
That’s it. He got his point there.
And everytime I lose my interest in programming, I kept remind myself about it.
Take it as amanah. Do it for the sake of Allah.
“A fruitless year, take a fearless heart, one
that blooms late will flourish in the dark”
Jami, Salomé: In Every Inch In Every Mile
in Diploma Computer Science after all. And I change it to Information System
Engineering when I pursue my study to bachelor degree. The one that I decide
thoroughly. And I already aware of the subjects that I were going to learn and
yes, it didn’t involve Microsoft thingy again.
my degree was not in smooth journey as well, but my family were always there. And
Emi, was being the one who kept advising me patiently. And since my degree was at
Shah Alam, everyone did call me everyday. Luckily I didn’t have a boyfriend. If
not I think I already break up after one day of relationship since I didn’t have a
spare time for him (plus I don’t want to have a boyfriend too). My life is full
with family. And it’s quite difficult to welcome a stranger.
Only a ‘stranger’
who is tough enough can be there and already be there. Eh? 🙊.
not all wrong decisions are totally ‘wrong’. Sometimes Allah leads us to the
wrong one before He helps us to see the right one, isn’t it? Or maybe the wrong
decision that we think we are not fit in, is the best?
And as I
always mention in my blog, don’t forget to be grateful with what we had and be
|True indeed 😉|
Allah bersama-sama orang yang sabar (Al-Baqarah:153).